Will I ever speak your language: ART

Sat in a lecture where I am learning more about everything else but anything the poor tutor is talking about?

In Art is it quite common to come across people who talk you into confusion, is this a tactic to bewilder the viewer into believing their work is is of some intelligence, meaning or depth?
Words I have never heard are repeated to me,  as if the repetition of the words will somehow convince me I understand them.

It scares me as I do not think no matter no long I study, no matter how much I read, no matter how many dictionaries I revise, I do not think I will ever be able to accomplish a fluency in this language. Does this mean I will never be respected as an artist, does this mean I have no hope in one day teaching in further or higher education?

When did Art become a science? A mind boggling study of life/ sciences/ education/ views/ opinions/ history and symbolism: combined and pieced together with long words to explain the artists view of the world.  When did a piece of art stop becoming the main outcome of an artists practice?  When did it become about everything else but? I am not saying that Art isn't and shouldn't be a representation of an artists view on life, but what I am asking is when did this study become the work and not the Art itself?

Why do I not have all these big words to describe my process, my thoughts around my work,  will this come with time or will this be something, like I mentioned before that becomes my weakness and downfall? Or will I be able to savvy up my work with fancy words and essay titles after the practice itself is over, and if I do this will it be true?

Work Experience or Exhibition??

So next term I need to think about a placement or professional practice element to my study! 

Unlike most of my peers I am not inspired by becoming the next big artist. I don't see this as a bad thing as my main focus of my work is me... Not in a selfish way! 

For now my work I about getting myself to a place where I inspire and help future students.

A lot of my friends went to University straight from school and then straight into teaching, so at the tender age of 21 they were in a position to guide and mould children's lives! I never understood this as how can you help, guide or give emphasise with children and their parents if you have no life experience yourself!

I feel that as a person I am now better placed to do this as at 29... Although still young I have gained so much life experience through living rather than following the society norms! 

Now is about me getting my practice up to scratch! 

I have approached my current tutors as I would love to gain some insight into the world of teaching! The idea sounds amazing so now I need to see if te experience fits the image I have created in my mind. 

To be continuted....... 

State of Mind

Watching "im a celebrity" I started to question myself!? What am I hoping to find from watching such a programme? Entertainment? 

Entertainment watching other people suffer, go through pain and find sollace by the most ridiculous rewards!? Do we watch this programme to view the "celebrity" suffer, go without their luxuries and live like us "common" people? 

Is that what the metaphor is? Is it really a programme highlighting the issues of class?? The rich and poor?! 

I find it fascinating to watch how as humans we react to confinement, survival, facing fears! Some of us become strong and look after the weaker members, come hide in the shadows and kind of go into a state if denial, then there's the ones who turn on others... Whether to narrow the completion or to entertain themselves I'm not sure!!? 

I guess this is what everyone does everyday in life...